And the more you keep working in the mold the more you feel you belong?… Being crippled has really helped me work out a number of things, my girlfriend Ally says it sounds like I have been on a meditation retreat (she went on a 10 day one with non stop meditation, celibacy and silence – a big ask for her but she did it and got a lot out of it!… I ended up in therapy and almost had another breakdown, all of this should have pointed me in the right direction but I guess you need to hit me over the head with a car before I get a point !