Fear

nude study sketch
nude study sketch, by Jennie

A funny thing happened sometime last year when I wasn’t looking. In between preparing for shows and working on marketing Something happened when I least expected it. The barriers came down. I stopped being afraid to paint different things, to try a new aspect. Subjects that thwarted me again and again randomly started coming easily – like hair, flowers and so much more.

I think at some point I decided not to be afraid of the places I wanted to go with my art – both career-wise and technique-wise. I opened up the possibilities I had never hoped to explore. I put away my reference photos and started working from my head. I put away the things I was hiding behind and I think I am finally beginning to trust in my ability as an artist.

The other night I drew this while waiting for some paint to dry (it’s better than watching it!). I had a pose in my brain and rather than dismiss it as too hard without a model or photograph I just stepped up to my easel and created what was in my head. I am obscurely quite proud of this quick sketch, When I stepped back and “saw” it I couldn’t believe it was something I did.

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