um.. I think it is a technique thing. I have been a bit afraid to explore some more personal things, but I have been.. afraid I guess. it is hard to let your inner self take over, to let something personal come out like that. it’s like therapy, but it’s hard to start and it’s hard to see the results.

My works are often quite personal, but slightly superficial, not that deep because I am afraid to let it all out – how do I show it? how do I let it out? and if I break through to everything underneath.. what happens? is it like a dam that has burst? what if people don’t like me because of the freaky things in my head?

It’s something that is starting to come out. My frustration with being laid up (again) is being let out on my sketch book. Drawing, I feel, is more automatic. I will lie there and watch my pencil – it moves on it’s own, I am completely detached, watching it fly across the page, and the things that come out surprise me. I don’t know where they come from.

Tags: Art, creating art, CRPS, musing