Preliinary Nude sketch, by Jennie
I had a random realization yesterday, I think I have been a victim of self censorship. Look at my last two shows. The first one was very edgy and out there, especially with some pieces. A lot of people mentioned to me how uncomfortable it made them, how raw and emotive it was – that it was too ‘in your face.’ The next show, I sub-conciously toned it down. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I edited nipples and posed my nudes or shaded so there was no genitalia showing. I guess I wanted to ensure that this show was less dramatic and more joyful. The technique was better, my compositions and pieces were much better technically but they lacked a certain edge. They looked like my work but didn’t *feel* like my work if you know what I mean.
Well, now that i have realized that I am going to stop worrying how people are going to take my exhibitions and stick with the pieces, and the themes, that I want to create. I have some works in planning at the moment that are very dramatic, I am excited about seeing them come to life. I am also thoroughly enjoying sketching everything out, it’s very freeing to get all of these down on paper.