I am going through one of those down patches. all artists have them as far as I can tell, berating themselves and vilifying their work. I have so many ideas but I seem to be incapable of putting them down at the moment. yesterday was spent in my studio turning from one work to the next and pretty much destroying them – for some reason everything I did turned to crap. It’s a fact of life that we all have these days but that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. coupled with the fact that I am still recovering from a very nasty winter and am sick again I feel like a complete waste of space.
Something about spring turns our minds to the future, love and bunnies and little chickens and all that crap. it’s a human condition and while I delight in the sun and the cherry blossoms I panic as I look back over the winter and realize how little I’ve done. I feel like I am working all the time, nonstop, but I am just running on the spot – getting nowhere. I’ve created few works that I actually like this year and while I have gained confidence and shown internationally, it isn’t something that I can point to – I wasn’t there so it doesn’t feel like it happened. I work best with a goal and right now I am foundering for a lack of direction.