This is my ugliest painting yet.
I am not kidding. I think its hideous. but its ugly in a good way. its pretty obvious what its about and its pretty obvious where it came from. (although the Marilyn Mansonesque look is completely accidental) The technique is the same I used with Redhead and it is supposed to be a complete contrast between freedom and self confidence and the cycle of self hatred and abuse that anorexia can cause. it is a pretty obvious comparison really and frankly I think this painting lacks in subtlety but I wanted to hammer the reality in. she is not happy, she is still looking for the excess fat she knows is there – she can see it in the mirror – the fat mocks her.
I have had title ideas while I was painting it but they are all gone now – just tired I guess.
I want to explore EDs more but it will be more subtle than this. I planned this in my head and it is almost exactly what I pictured. thats right, I intended this ugly ugly painting. I have some other ideas for some paintings that will be more attractive and will fit in with some of my other works. I just needed to do this one.
I also need to think about my assignments. there is a lot to think about before I even get started.