I’m feeling a little overwhelmed at the moment, at times I find it very hard to get enthused about anything. I feel itchy inside but not able to focus on anything. I have a lot to do but I don’t feel a pull towards anything so I end up doing little aimless bits to no good end.
Usually when I feel like this there is something at the root of it. I can’t focus because my brain wants to get something out. I think it is, as usual, something artistic in nature. I have so many ideas but I seem to have a problem realizing them as paintings. I just don’t like any of the paintings I have done lately – they aren’t working they way I want them to. I don’t know if it is overthinking, underthinking, or putting too much pressure on myself. probably the last, I always put pressure on. every work must be better than the last, every work needs to have relevance, and be striking, it must be inspired and perfect.
I think that is the reason I am drawing so much at the moment, drawing doesn’t need to be perfect. it is immediate, fun and relaxing.